Truth be known
I am petrified and it's freaking me out - next week I will be standing on a stage talking to people and the idea is making me sick.
I am in a quandary - aren't we "supposed" to come out of our comfort zones? Isn't it "supposed" to be good for us? To be honest right at this moment - I am not sure.
People have been telling me - you'll be fine. I might look like I'm fine but inside I am sick with too much adrenalin whooshing around my body. I am not going to lie - I think this might be a step too far. But I have said yes so I will do it - but will think twice about doing it again!
So the last few weeks have been mainly consumed with me trying to write and learn a speech - which hasn't worked out too well. There was a rehearsal at "Speakers Corner" in Hyde Park (didn't see that coming) last week - I couldn't remember anything and kept stop and starting. I came home and re wrote the whole thing and colour coded it in an attempt to remember it.
Apart from the speech taking over my life, an update on my book: I have now sold 640 copies of my book, a literally agent has been generating interest at some publishing houses, I've had a lovely review on http://shortbookandscribes.uk/reviews/bookreview-collecting-conversations-by-sam-bunch-collectingconvs/ and have seen the proof of my article in Good Housekeeping - an amazing 3 pages. It comes out next month - the August edition.
I have also got cracking on the men - 9 in total so far. I will start adding them to my blog over the coming weeks. I've missed not doing the listening part of my work recently - I love it - it's the best bit. It's like being in a classroom without the rules or exams and it's never dull.